Tuesday, September 15, 2009

My F*&^ed up mind

I have so many things that are on my to do list, but how can I do them when my brain isn't focused? I just turned over a new leaf with J.D., and we finally have the friendship that we wanted when we broke up. But what do I do when just thinking of him, seeing him reminds me of how much of a failure my life is.

It took me 9 years to barely graduate college. And now I can't even get a simple receptionist job.

I have a closed mind just like the bigots on the far right, that i fight against.

I'm 27 years old, and have no desire to leave my house. I should be out on the town.

Meeting new people scares me, because I have trust issues.

I don't have any ambition to do anything about this fat ass body that I hate.

Everyone who I have ever loved in any capacity hates me cause I can't control my temper, and now those bridges are burned and I can't go back.

My life really needs a jump start, but I think that I am just to scared to connect the cables.