My F*&^ed up mind

I have so many things that are on my to do list, but how can I do them when my brain isn't focused? I just turned over a new leaf with J.D., and we finally have the friendship that we wanted when we broke up. But what do I do when just thinking of him, seeing him reminds me of how much of a failure my life is.

It took me 9 years to barely graduate college. And now I can't even get a simple receptionist job.

I have a closed mind just like the bigots on the far right, that i fight against.

I'm 27 years old, and have no desire to leave my house. I should be out on the town.

Meeting new people scares me, because I have trust issues.

I don't have any ambition to do anything about this fat ass body that I hate.

Everyone who I have ever loved in any capacity hates me cause I can't control my temper, and now those bridges are burned and I can't go back.

My life really needs a jump start, but I think that I am just to scared to connect the cables.

Victim of the Economy

So as Valentines Day comes and goes for most, I find out that I am haunted by that day.

While I was spending one of the most wonderful days with my partner d0m, someone else was celebrating Halloween by pretending to be me and opening about 3 credit cards under my name.

Well over the weekend I got letters in the mail from these credit cards "thanking" me for opening a new account, but that they had some information that was not matching up and that they needed me to contact them and give them the right info.

So this morning I called all three companies and got the cards canceled. Then I had to call all three credit reporting companies and have a fraud alert put on my credit. So now I have the long fight ahead of me to get back my identity and hope that they have not done anything substantial to ruin my credit.

So just a word of advice to all that read this, check your credit and make sure everything is ok. For more information go to www.ftc.gov/freereports.

College Athletes

So today I called our athletic director at Fresno State to file a complaint against two of his student athletes. These two athletes sit in the back of the class at hold a full on conversation for the entire length of the class. They have been doing this since the beginning of the semester and it finally has gotten to the point when I can no longer concentrate on the professor. They have called me back to make sure they have all the details right, so I'm not sure where it is going to go, but we'll see.

But that leads me to a question. Why is it that student athletes think they are above the rest of the university? Do they really think that because they are on some sort of team that we must treat them like gods? And why do the professors do it, sure they have to excuse them from class for sporting events, but why do they get to turn papers in late, or do things that they would not allow other students to do?

You can bet that at the end of the semester I will be expressing my disappointment in our professor in the teacher evaluation.